HAPPY NEW YEAR...!!

tepat jam 12 mlm nanti kita akan bergerak melangkah ke tahun baru..

2011... 

hurm.. mcm biasa la.. 

setiap kali tahun baru sure semua orang da tetapkan azam baru..

n termasuk aku lah..

each n every year with nue azam..

jgn tanya apa azam tahun 2010 aku sbb aku mmg x ingat..

erkk..!! abaikan..

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sempena tahun baru ni, kita mulakan la dgn azam baru..

n hopefully i'll remember it and try to fullfill it throughout 2011..

untuk menjadikan ianya lebih berkesan dan bermakna, aku da [sbnrnya msh lg dlm kategori.. akan] list down apa yg aku nk capai in 2011..

dr aspek personal life aku, my career, my relationship [workplace, frens and ...]

mengharapkan segalanya berjalan dengan lancar dan sukses hendaknya..

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i wud like to wish my best buddy, cik fairy a very happy burfdayy...

smga sgala yg anda impikan dan hajatkan menjadi kenyataan hujung tahun depan.. 

peace!

SEDIH...!! :(

i'm on my way preparing everything for next yr..

i think a lot n i plan a lot..

because i'm very sure dat i wil get it next yr.. 

suddenly i get to know dat it wont happen..

sooooooooooooo frustrateddddddddddd...!!!

i dunno wat to do..

i dunno wat to think..

i feel like i'm goin to die..

 

 but, no worry frens..

i wont commit suicide..

i need food therapy..

SUSHI KING..??

yeahhh...!!

smoked salmon..?? kani tama maki..?? ebiko..??  surimi scallop..?? ebi ten @ fry..?? tori karage ..?? golden ball..?? etc.

lalaalalalalalalalaalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

[singing wit teary eyes]

 

MMMMMMOOOODDDDDDDDD..??!

 

dunno wat happen..

i guess i should feel happy but i'm not..

sometimes i think i'm mad but i don't have the right..

now,  i feel frustrated and that is true..

huhhh...

let's go back to the reality..

stop dreaming cause it won't bring you anywhere..

it didn't help you but harm you even more..

thanks to God for that moment..

the moment that make me realized where am i..

the moment that wake me up from my lovely fantasy..

the moment that help me to think straight so i won't fall again.. 

Dear God..

please help me and guide me when i'm weak..

please remind me cause i tend to forget..

please love me cause i really need it..

please care about me cause it'll make me happy..

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its a terrible day..

i lost control..

mentally, emotionally and physically..

its hurt me and i hope its already end..

wake up dear..!! 

wake up..!!

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BREATHLESS..

"if u short, fat n ugly, dun worry, there''ll b sum1 dat love u, care about u and spend d rest of his/her life with u..  

but..

 if u have a disease package, dun u dream to hv ones.."

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i'm breathless last nite.. 

suddenly..

may b, Hb count low..

next review, Hemato Clinic, is still far away..

its on January 2010..

hopefully i can survive with d vitamins given by doc..

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i'm enjoying my life now..

as my fren said, i ned to think positive..

think about happy things..

n dreams..

of course..my fav activity..

hahahahaaaa~ :)

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hey..

i'm fallin in lov again..

n of course its one-sided love lah..

he's single n ebelebel b4, but, not now..

he's getting engaged soon..

i'm happy for him..

congrats oppa..

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sarang hae..!!

GRIBBLES.. :(

Monday - GH, Ipoh - collect medical report..

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then - Hospital Tun Fatimah, Gribbles - collect ENA test result..

"The presence of $$@ antibody is primarily associated with the $&0#3^$ group of diseases, although it may b seen in a variety of other ********** diseases."

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Dear God, 
please give me strength to face everything in future related to my diseases..
if i hv to "go" 1st b4 my parents, please take care of them on behalf of me..
thanks..

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"SSTU D KOTAK FIKIRAN"

goin to Pangkor next wek utk induksi..
excited but afraid..
boleh ke survive..??
i'm not friendly..
ada ke org nk kwn dgn aku..??
huhh..

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sllu sakit kpla lately..
severe headache..
ned actifast kalau tak mmg menderita menahan sakit..
cuaca panas kot..
dats y..
but, as doc said dat i hv d tendencies to &%^$*&#@$%^%$^&&%^$..
itu yg menakutkn..
erkk..!

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hope to not think about dis nemore..
but rs tkilan dan kecik ati ttp dtg..
btol la kata org, manusia cpt berubah..
dlm skelip mata je..
so, lets get rid this kind of people from our life..
wekkkksss..!!

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WHO IZ HE..??

funny~ funny~ funny..~
hahaha~

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its all about my dream last nite..
try to stop it, but i cant..
hihihi~

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berada d sebuah bilik, dalam sebuah rumah yg besar..
i was on my bed when i saw a guy walk out from d toilet in my room..
he told me to take my shower n get ready for breakfast..cuba utk melihat dan mengenalpasti siapakah dia, tp  x bole..
i can c his body next to me but not his face..
mcm ada sbuah lampu di letakkn di blkg kplanya yg mnyebabkan wajahnya x kelihatan..

OMG..!!
WHO IZ HE..??
jeng jeng jeng..

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oittt.. Baiti..!!
stop dreaming k..
oweys dream dream dream..
wat u get..??
nuting lor...
ceh..!
but, who iz he erk..??

** in my dream he is my husband.. but in reality.. i dunno who he is..**

uwaaaaaaaaaaa~

ADMITTED & DISCHARGED - HPBI @ GH

Admitted : 7th Sept 2010, 2.20 a.m - Ward 8B, Bed 28
                 8th Sept 2010, 6.50 p.m transferred to Ward 8C, Room 6, Bed 2

Discharged : 27th Sept 2010, 6.15 p.m

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                                                                  Blood Transfusion

 

 

Me & Cik Fairy

                                                              En. Bullah  & En. Farid

                                                        En. Bullah, En. Farid & En. Pezol

                                                                        Me & Nurse

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tq to all my frens [En. Akla, En. Faizal cd, En. Pezol, En. Fizi, En. Farid Nidzam, En. Ikhram, En. Jian, Cik Aziah, Cik Zura] yg dtg melawat i di wad..
special thanks to Cik Fairy dan En. Bullah yg sllu dtg melawat i dan membawa mknn yg i teringin nk mkn.. 
thanks juga kepada rakan skerja Puan Wan Norazah, Pn. Huda, Cik Nadia & Cik Chai atas lawatan anda semua..
special thanks to En. Fauzi kerana x jemu2 singgah ke bilik sy & memantau keputusan darah sy..
org kata, kawan ketawa sng d cari, kawan menangis 1 dlm 1000..
kehadiran kamu semua amat dhargai..
org kata, ada ubi ada batas, ada hari boleh balas..
insyaallah, mudah-mudahan budi kamu semua dapat ssy balas suatu masa nanti..
x lupa juga terima kasih buat staffnurse  & doktor2 [Dr. Yoges, Dr. Richard, Dr. Padmini, Dr. Pamela, Datuk Dr. Chandran, Dr. Chew, Dr. Lee B.H, Dr. Guru, Dr. Hafizah, Dr. Solha, Dr. Oh dll]yg merawat sy..

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IT's MY BURFDAY..!!

hey..
its my burfday today...
thanks to all my frens n studs yg wish i kt FB..
wat i ned now is doa anda semua supaya i sehat smla..

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burfday thn ni i d uji skali lg dgn kesihatan yg tidak memberangsangkan..
had feverish since last tuesday till now - x ok2 lg..
still under treatment and further investigation dgn Hospital Kampar.. urinary tract infections & anemia - low Hb, WBC & RBC
better kot than Hospital Ipoh..
hopefully semuanya ok2 belaka..

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i'm totally in pain n feel like dying..
++ rs sgt2 bdosa sbb x dpt menunaikan ibadah puasa dgn baik thn ini..
doakan i sembuh scepat mungkin k..

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thanks to cik fairy, cik dilla n en. bullah utk hadiah burfday..
i upload d pict later k..
d presents stil in my car..
sy sgt2 menghargainya...

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COBAAN.. ("~,~)

menganggapnya sbgai cobaan dr Tuhan utk menguji keimanan sy di bulan yang mulia ini..
maka, sy terima dugaan ini dgn tenang dan sabar..
hahaha~

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a very gud introduction, huhh..??!
ekceli demam sejak beberapa hari ini..
bmula dgn sakit kepala yg teramat, sakit tekak, d susuli batuk kering, demam panas di waktu malam, chill, batuk berkahak, demam + chill + headache sepanjang hari..
kejadian bermula sehari sblm mkn mlm sy dan cik fairy di Restoran Shakira n hinnga hari ini..
smlm ke hospital utk jmpa doc - amik ubat + mc... heheh~
mmg sungguh tidak larat..
doc siap suh bukak puasa utk mkn ubat but i refused..

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ke hospital pd jam 12 tgh hari..
da bersiap2 utk ke skola.. tiba2 rs malas lak..
plus, tempt tinggi sgt rsnyer..
so, ajak mak teman g hospital..
abah suggest ke klinik..
but, since i ni sgt kedekot utk mbazir RM20.++, i insists nk g hospital gak..
reached hospital around 12.15 m.d, daftar n tggu turn..
12.30 d panggil masuk, btemu doc n complain.. complain and complain..
then, doc suh amik darah n air kencing..
menunggu keptusan itu dr jam 12.45 hingga jam 2.20 p.m..
nak patah rsnyer pinggang duduk menunggu..
but, still sabar..

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tepat 2.20 p.m di panggil masuk lg..
based on blood n urine test u, u demam biasa je.. so, kita bg u ubat n antibiotic lah buat ms ni..
erkk..!! watever la doc.. nk mc..!
curi2 tgk kptsn darah..
da lama x buat FBC..
PLT = 100..?? aiks.. kenapa da turun..??
hurm..
sbb da x larat sgt nk duduk lama, x mo tanya doc la..
sure dia x tau sejarah perubatan i..
kang panjang lg citernyer..
:p

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blk rumah - tekak kering, abah suh bukak pose..
alaa... mmg x larat giler time tu..
tp, mengenangkan da jam 2.45 p.m baek teruskan sahaja..
lepas bbuka, solat maghrib + isya'..
turun, makan ubat, lipat kain, pengsan..!!
hahah~

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to my frens..
utk event kita sabtu ni, if i da betul2 sehat i g k..
:D

NO.2

yourobun..!!
its quite a while since my last post.. erk..!! is it..??

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ekceli, i just want to share d decisions dat i've made yesterday..
after i think about it hardly last wekend..
i think no matter how i try to save 'them' , at the end I'm d one who end up frustrating and disappointing..
so, i asks myself..
1. shud i save them and suffer throughout dis year while dey dun intend to make any positive changes..
or..
2. shud i save myself to enables me to enjoy my job throughout dis year by ignoring and leaving them behind with their &*#@^%...??

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after my hard wek last wek..
n after thinking hard last wekend..

i prefer to save myself..

am i doing d right thing..??
i hope God will agree with me..

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Mianhamnida 미안합니다

...... [dun read, its rubbish..]

when i just started my job 2 years ago with my complicated missions **family, financial,future,etc**
most of my frens started to dating n some of them oredy married..

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when i just started to learn how to cook **preparation for entering d next chapter of my life**
d other half of my frens busy preparing for their wedding..

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while most of them are married, i'm still searching for my soulmate..
i wonder, am i 1000 steps behind them..??  

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does dis make any sense..???
**laugh**

MY 1st ATTEMPT..

due to stresses day, yesterday..
i make an iced choc for my food therapy.. 
haha~

so refreshing..
mak kata sedap.. 

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PISS OFF..!!!

dalam salah satu ayat dalam surah Al-Imran ada menyatakan bahawa Allah itu menyukai orang2 yg memaafkan orang laen dan bersabar..
n sbg org yg memiliki sifat panas baran di tmbh pulak dgn hyperthyroidism dlm tubuh ini agak sukar utk menjadi seperti itu..
tp, i've tried as best as i can to control myself in every situations dat i faced..
however, yesterday's incident sgt2 mcabar kesabaran sy sbg sorg manusia dan hamba Allah..

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semalam..
ada 2 org salesman dtg nk jual buku agama..
ms 1st budak tu dtg, sy ckp sorry i'm not interested..
then, while waiting for other teachers, dat boy keep asking me questions..
ok, fine.. as long as he let me doing my work at dat time..
then, budak kedua berkopiah putih pulak dtg..
mberi salam n mula menunjukkan buku yg dia bwk pd sy..
i said again, sorry, i'm not interested..
budak tu explain psl buku yg dia bwk n suh sy pegang buku tu..
so, to not disappoint him sy amik dan pegang buku tu dan belek2 mn yg patut..
bcoz i'm very busy at dat moment, i listen to wat he's trying to explain while doing my work..
dat boy insists me to read d book..
again i amik buku tu belek2 sikit n ckp i'm not interested, sorry..
ms amik 2nd time tu, bru perasan mcm buku tu pernah ada salesman yg bwk b4 dis n i said, buku ni pernah ada salesman lain jual di sini bbrpa bulan yg lalu..
then, salesman yg berkopiah putih tu ckp..
akak kalau x berminat nk beli buku ni, cakap jek la x nk, sy boleh pergi.. x payah la nk ckp buku ni pernah dtg sini sblm ni.. kalo dlu ada org bwk pon bukan semua cikgu beli kan..??? akak beli ke..?? 
huhh..!!
dgn serta merta my temperature naek..
n i said to myself budak ni mmg perlu di ajar..!
so, i said..
u dah la dtg tmpt org, pakai kopiah pulak tu.. plz mind ur words ok.. from d very beginning i've told u dat i'm not interested but u insists me to do dis and dat n i follow just to not disappoint u n now u berani nk tinggi2 suara pulak ye..! u x faham2 ke i said i'm not interested! now, u better leave dis room!

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salahkah kalau kesabaran sy hilang dlm situasi begini..??

"NIGHTMARES" - inverted comma k..

unexpected things happen..
horrible.. terrible.. miserable..n -ble..-ble..-ble..
because its happen at nite, so i call it "nightmares"..
goshh..!!

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dun care whether its true or not..
serious or joke..
i just dun want to think about it..
so..
lets consider it as "nightmares"..

***
thank you..!!

"Mak, org nk kawen lah..!!"

slps bersahur pg td, ms tgh tggu masuk waktu subuh..
peluk mak dr blkg n ckp "mak.. org nk kawen lah.."

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hahahaha~ ni sumer gara2 bca blog Cik FariSya (ex-floormate, UM 03/04)..
of coz not because of her hensem husband so aku jd gegatai nk kawen..
but, because of kehidupan mereka yg sgt bhga slps mereka berkahwin..
ekceli, i love d part d mn Cik Farisya ni memasak utk somi terchenta dgn resepi2 western nya..
tu yg mbuatkn den nk kawen jugo..
hehehehe~

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ekceli dapur is not my fav place..
i'm not very gud at cooking but really expert at eating.. :p
since kt sabah ms duduk rumah sewa n gaduh2 dgn housemate so kena masak sendiri..
hahaha~
i sgt2 teruja utk memasak tp bukan masak mknn org melayu..
ada la cuba few mskn Melayu utk juadah bersahur i.e ikan bawal/putih sweet n sour, sup sayur, sotong masak kicap/pedas, udang goreng kunyit, ikan kukus, kangkung belacan, gulai masam batang keladi, tumis kubis daun sup n etc.. 

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i sgt2 minat nk cuba masak western food, deserts and cakes..
but at dat time sume peralatan memasak x de..
maklumlah rumah bujang..
lg pun susah nk dpt bahan2 di Kudat tu..
jauh terperosok ke hujung Sabah..
so, berazam bila blk rumah nk masak..
tp, azam jek la.. dapur tetap gak tak berasap2..
my reason is x de sapa nk mkn mskn i..
my father very fussy ttg mknn ni..
kalo dia tau bukan mak yg masak, dia x mo try..
kalo try pon byk la bunyik kt blkg..
plus, i nk msk western food n deserts..
rumah i ni tggl mak dgn abh n me..
both mak n abh x mkn kot western2 ni..
so...
hurmmm~
dlu ada gak teringat nk masak n bg budak2 mkn..
tp, dpt studs yg baka - baka patah smgt tros.. ;(

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apa kena mengena masak dgn nk kawen, murid2..??
mari cekgu jelaskan..
bila kawen dpt hasben.. so, bole cuba masak pelbagai resipi n sumbat kt dlm perot dia.. dgn syarat dia x kisah la mkn pe pun..
heheheheh~

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ala omak kawen kan aku.. 
lalalalalala~
 

KISAH NABI IDRIS..

petikan dr Metro, 14/08/2010..
dlm Metro smlm, ada bercerita tentang Kisah Nabi Idris yg di benarkn oleh Allah S.W.T utk melawat neraka dan syurga serta merasai mati..
berikut adalah pengalaman Nabi Idris..

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sakaratul maut - 
seperti binatang yg masih hidup dan di lapah kulitnya.. sakaratul maut 1000x lebih sakit dari itu.. walhal, menurut malaikat maut, kelembutan yang beliau lakukan semasa mencabut nyawa Nabi Idris tidak pernah di lakukan kepada sesiapa sebelum ini..

neraka - 
melihat alat-alat yang di ciptakan oleh Tuhan untuk menyeksa musuh-Nya seperti rantai panas, ular berbisa, kala, api yang membara, timah yang mendidih, pokok yang penuh berduri serta air panas mendidih

syurga - 
melihat segala kenikmatan disediakan Allah untuk wali-Nya seperti buah-buahan, pokok yang indah dan sungai yang mengalir..

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terasa cukup indah tatkala malaikat menemani Nabi Idris bersiar-siar dan menghantarkan makanan dr syurga buatnya..
dan di saat nyawa Nabi Idris di cabut, malaikat maut menangis melihat kesakitannya..

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tersentuh hati membaca ruangan tersebut dan tertanya-tanya kepada diri sendiri..
yang mana satu kah tempat ku..??

THE SIGN..??

waktu kejadian - malam kedua Ramadhan..

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seorang diri memandu kereta.. not sure pagi, tengah hari atau petang.. yang pasti siang!
menyusuri jalan2 yg rsnya pernah di lalui.. and again not sure jalan menuju ke mana..
memandu dgn agak laju..
selepas seketika, terasa spt di perhatikan oleh pemandu2 arah bertentangan..
ada yg menyalakan lampu tinggi sbgai isyarat.. tak pasti untuk apa..
tiba2 pandangan terasa kabur [kelabu]..
"ehh.. kenapa ni..??" , sambil mengosok2 mata..
sebuah kereta dr arah bertentangan memperlahankan keretanya sambil membunyikan hon..
tgnnya menunjuk-nunjuk ke arah bhgn depan kereta sy..
i'm not sure wat he's trying to say..
so, i keep on driving.. dalam kekaburan & kekelabuan..
soon, i realized sumting hapen to my car..
itupun sbb terhidu bau hanget dr dlm kereta..
"gosh..!! air bateri kering..??"
bhgn enjin kereta da berasap rupanya..
no wonder kelabu td..
sy terus memandu.. memandu.. dan memandu..
dan akhirnya berhenti di sebatang jalan kampung..
di belakang sebuah rumah yg meriah.. mcm ada kenduri kawen - sgt ramai org.. 
bunyi geseran tayar kereta dgn permukaan jalan [emergency break] membuatkan semua org di rumah berkenaan [termasuk ahlil muzik dan pesilat2] berhenti daripada menjalankan aktiviti mereka..
dgn pantas sy melompat keluar dr kereta..
seorang mak cik dtg menghampiri dan mengajak sy masuk ke dalam rumah..
sy duduk di satu sudut di ceruk dapur berkenaan..
kemudian mak cik itu berlalu dan suasana yg tdnya diam [akibat brek kecemasan sy] menjadi meriah semula..
sy tunggu dan tunggu dan terus menunggu [dengan harapan ada yg sudi membantu sy dan kereta]..
tp, sebaliknya.. sy di biarkan keseorangan di situ dan tidak di hiraukan..

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terdengar bunyi tapak kaki deras dan kuat..
tersentak lalu tersedar..
nmpk kelibat abah menghilang di sebalik pintu.
melihat jam di hp, 4.45 a.m..
oh.. aku bermimpi rupanya..

***  
erkk..!!
apakah...??

PUASA & MASAK..

hey, yorobun..!!
lg 2 hr nk puasa..
oyeahh...!! melompat2 kgembiraan even dlm hati gusar sama ada mampu melaksanakannya atau tidak..

***
biasanya kalo kt sabah dlu, bulan pose adlh bulan d mn dapur aku berasap setiap hr..
time ni la nk test skill memasak yg x sberapa ni..
lepas utk tekak sdri jd la..

***
tp, skrg..  bila da dok kt rumah dgn mak..
keinginan utk masak itu ada, tp.. segan + malas.. mak masak lg sedap..
huhu~

***
sgt teringin utk mcuba masak puding jagung.. my fav..
da cr resepi n sdg fikir bila nk melaksanakannya.. nk masak masa sumer org x de kt rumah.. malu2 (*-^)..
hopefully dpt laksanakannya hr selasa ini..
hoho~
fighting!

MAK Ooo~ MAK..

dlm kereta dgn mak otw nk blk rumah dr kampung, mlm td..

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mak kata -  
Kalau dah tau malas nk basuh keta buat pe beli keta warna putih..??

me - erkk..!! sambil senyum2 kambing..

mak kata lg -

Esok pagi suh abah basuh keta kamu..dah nak hitam da warnanya..

tanpa berkata apa-apa, perjalanan di teruskan..

***
 heheheh~

SEPERTI KERA KENA BELACAN..

x reti duduk diam..
melompat sana sini..
menjerit sekuat hati..
cuba teka siapakah ia, murid-murid..??

saper lg..?? korang la, baka..!! [**baka bukan bakar ek..**]

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how to perfectly describe all of u..??
emmm.. 바보-babo?..? it's too nice of me to call u dat..
or.. 멍충아!- mungchoongah..?? still not suits u well..
perhaps it shud be 바보, 병신, byung shin .. ?? hurm... yes.. dats rite..!

***
dari mana kamu semua datang..??
hutan kah...?? ladang kah..?? kebun kah..??
perangai mcm kera kena belacan..!!
skola da rasa macam zoo..
mungkin.. zoo lebih aman kot..

***

hari ini dalam sejarah - mengejar budak2 guna sebatang penyapu..
pedulikan apa org nk kata tentang tindakan itu..
sbb.. hanya itu saja cara yang terlintas di kepala pada masa kejadian..
u nk panggil parents u..?? silakan.. i dun mind n i dun care..

***
budak skrg sgt kurang rasa hormat pada guru..
mak bapak dorg sendiri pon dorg x hormat..
inikan pulak guru yang tak de pertalian darah dgn mereka..
saper yg perlu di persalahkan..??
bila cekgu amik tindakan sikit, parents mula melenting.. padahal perangai anak korang tu yg da macam $**#@&..!!
bila anak kurang cerdik, cekgu jugak di salahkan.. padahal anak korang tu yg x nk belajar..!!

***
ingat lari balik Semenangjung dpt la budak2 yg ok sikit..
rupa2nya ok banyak giler perangai macam $**#@&..!!
BAKA..!! BAKA..!! BAKA..!!
rasa nk mengadu kat Aduan Rakyat, TV3 dah ni..

***
so, kepada cekgu2 DC41 yg bakal melapor diri di JPN masing2 pada 16 Ogos 2010 ini..
jgn salah faham dengan apa yg di tuliskan di atas..
mungkin u kata, "apalah cekgu ni.. bla..bla..bla.."..
sy dlu mcm tu jugak bila ada cekgu2 lama komplen pasal studs mereka..
but dis is d real thing dat i've went through since my 1st year being as a teacher..
n thn ini merupakan pengalaman yg plg teruk berbanding 2 thn sebelumnya..
yg dpt skola bagus, i.e cluster school, SBP, MRSM n etc, u sgt bernasib baik..


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walau apapun dugaannya..
walau apapun cabaran yang u bakal tempuhi nanti..
ingat 1 perkara..
kita adalah guru dan tugas kita adalah untuk mendidik pelajar..
jalankan tugas kita sebaik mungkin regardless wat dey have done to us..
so,
yorobun 여러분... fighting..!!

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DILEMA..

hr ni sgt byk ms free kt skola - hari ni je la.. hari lain - full gilers!
so, terpikir2 nk bw atau x laptop g skola..
ada kerja yg perlu diselesaikan mggunakan komputer..
dlm kepala da ting tong ting tong komputer cekgu ya - sllu jd mangsa.. heheh~
tp, kalo dok bawah, mesti btmbh2 lg kerja..
almaklumlah.. yg faham, teruskan dgn kefahaman anda.. yg x faham, mind ur own bussiness!! hahahaha~
jd..??
keputusannya..??
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x yah bwk!!

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FRIENDS a.k.a KAWAN a.k.a CHINGU..

dlu ms skola, sy ada ramai kawan baek [perempuan]..
tp, after a few incidents sy rs sy x perlukn mereka semua..
bye-bye everyone~
 
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[mengumpat time..]
x bole lupa dgn sorg budak perempuan ni..
mulut mcm longkang giler..
ayat2 yg dia luahkan sgt menyentap perasaan - mcm dia bagus sgt!
kalo kutuk sy sorg x pe - ni siap dgn abah sy skali kena..
kalo ikutkn hati ms tu, mmg km bgaduh besar la..
but, since sy baek orgnya [perasans!] so, sy bsabar [oweys ckp pd diri sdri, x lama da nk bdepan dgn dia]..
n yes, after SPM km jarang berjumpa smpi skrg.. - alhamdullillah..

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after SPM, ms kt matrikulasi..
mula rapat dgn ex-schoolmate -  Encik Nizam Maid..
even x sama matrikulasi, but communications technology berjaya merapatkan hubungan kami - its nothing to do wit wats on ur mind now, dowh! - so buang jauh2 k.. 
he is my best & close fren at dat time smpi la msuk UM, posting ke Kudat n now..
tp skrg dia agak busy dgn kerja baru dia - jgn risau sy faham situasi kamu..

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after i got transferred back to my hometown, Kampar - atas sbb2 yg tertentu..
sy mula rapat dgn bbrpa org ex-schoolmate sy..
n ader sorg Cik ni yg sy sgt takut utk rapat dgnnya, akhirnya km jd rapat -thanks to Encik Nizam..
org kata Cik ni sombong - 1st time jumpa mmg minah ni sombong skt..
but, slps bbrpa lama mengenali Cik  ni, i think she's better than pempuan di atas - 2nd paragraph..
even muka Cik ni nmpk sombong, but at least dia tidak sprti pempuan di atas [another kutukan for that agasshi]

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i wud like to thank to Encik Nizam and Cik Fairy di atas kegembiraan yg kamu bw dlm hidup sy spjng mengenali kamu - dengan penuh syahdu.. 
setiap saat bersamu kamu sgt2 sy hargai..

 from left - Cik Fairy, Me & Encik Nizam.. 

saranghaeyo..!

 

MAGGIE + CRITE2 LAEN...

mlm2 begini biasanya sy akn masak maggie [asam laksa - mini packet] smbl2 tgk korean entertainment tv show..

mmg sgt srnk sekali n ekceli da ada jadual rancangan n x pernah miss tgk since last school holiday..

Selasa - Entertainment Weekly 

Rabu - Star Golden Bell Challenge

Khamis - Happy Together

Jumaat - 2 Days 1 Night

Ahad - Lets Go Dream Team [4. 25 p.m]

mmg sgt2 mhiburkn..

cuma mslhnyer siarannya lewat mlm - mnybbkn sy agak liat bgn pagi + headache!

tp mlm ni, ASTRO buat hal lg - piringnya goyang lg jd x dpt siaran..

abah naik kononnya nk betulkn piring ASTRO tu..

sebaliknya, piring tu tercabot pulak..!

adoyai~

jd, dgn rajinnya sy menanda buku budak2 yg da lebih 2 minggu tperap kt dlm bonet kereta..

sgt2 mls utk menanda..!!

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slsa ini ladies nite wit fairy [+En. Bullah] - nk tgk citer SALT..

teruja nk tgk lps bca status Cik Muhaini yg nk pergi menonton kali kedua..

sgt best kah crita itu..??

sama2 kita saksikannya di TGV, Kinta City, Ipoh..

++ Encik Bullah nk blanja mencekik GCB..

hr tu mkn dgn Cik Fairy x puas rasanya..

hehehehe~

bertambahlah gendut2 lemak di perut dan paha + kwsn2 yg seangkatan dgnnya..

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rabu ni kena pastikan blk kg dgn mak..

minggu ni x jenguk opah - mesti opah ttunggu2..

smlm nk blk.. si ketiak hanget blk rumah pulak...

nk blk td, x larat rsnyer nk memandu mmandangkn sy puasa [qada'] 

saper lg nk jenguk opah kalo bukan km yg duduk bdekatan dgnnya..

mungkin ini salah satu cara utk mbalas jasa opah sprt yg sllu sy doakan slps hbs solat..

"Ya Allah Ya Tuhan ku, panjangkanlah usia kedua ibu bapa ku serta opah ku, semoga aku dapat membalas jasa mereka kepada ku.."

dulu, dlm doa ini, nama atuk tidak pernah di tinggalkn..
tp skrg, atuk da tiada..
jd sy mendoakan agar rohnya di tempatkan di kalangan hamba2 yg beriman di sisi Allah..
smga rohnya di rahmati dan tenang bersemadi di sana..
amin..

rindu atuk!

POSTGRADUATES..!!

just applied for postgrad programs @ UIA & UPM..

ekceli still in process because ned to find referee..
who shud i ask to b my referee..??
ders few lecturers in my mind..
but, d prob is, wether i can find or not them in UM..??
faham2 je la.. lecturer UM ni x prnh yg ada kt bilik bila di cari..
sumer'y bz mmanjang..
oredy pick a date to go n find them in UM..
but, not confirm yet..
really hope dat my applications wil b accepted..
wish me luck everyone..

JIWA KACAU..??!!

semuanya mcm btimpa2..
just knw about dat guy engagement and his wed preparation end of dis yr 2 weks ago - if i'm not mistaken..
n just a few days ago luking at another guy wed photo & just found out about his engagement..
of course i'm happy for both of them especially d 1st guy because i din put any hope on him - even i did feel like he dumped me n i dunno y i feel dat way..
but.. for d 2nd guy..
i dunno how to describe my feelings..
but i hope i'll find sum1 to hang out with, soon..
so dat i can forget & totally remove d undescribable feelings..

**could der b sum1 shoulder's dat i can lean to..??**

Kalau Sudah Bukan Jodoh...

"Ajal maut jodoh pertemuan, semuanya ketentuan Tuhan.."

ms km msh contact2 dlu..
dunia ni mcm sgt besar sgt smpi km x tjmpa d mn2..
walhal, we live in d same district n he's working @ 1 of d factory near my house..
but, a day after i knw he oredy engaged..
tup tup jmpa kt skola smlm..
its really awkward..
cant explain how i feel at dat moment..
dlu, ms org bg tau aku sum1[him]  interested to knw me..
n ms d awl pkenaln km..
my instinct says dat he's not for me..
so, i follow wat my heart says..
layan dier as a fren..
i dun hv much time to entertain him at dat time..
my life busy wit work n arwah atok..
fortunately i din get too close with him..
wen dis kind of things hapen - his engagement..
at least i dun feel sad..
i'm sure during our relationship [as a fren]..
i dun hv any feelings towards him..
but y i feel like i've been dumped by him..??!
omg!!

Long Day....~~

night b4 today - watch world cup - Japan vs Paraguay..

Paraguay won d game..

congratulations to Japan for their best perfomance last nite -

really enjoy watching d game even not till d end..

today we celebrates Hari Koperasi, SMKSK..

we [me n 2B studs] sell rojak buah n air soya..

d idea for d menu is from their form teacher, cekgu zakiah..

here sum of d pict taken from today's activity..

right after cekgu zakiah replace me to monitor d studs, i hv to rush to PK1's rum..

my headcount havent finish yet..

ned to print d result slips, marksheet n analysis sheet..

sumting hapen wen i just about to finish my work..

fortunately its still not too late to re-do d printing..

its a long day, today..

but i manage to handle it as best as i can..

We Without Him..

fairy sms me yesterday eve,

fairy: mkn sushi n b'gosip jom

me: bila..?? sapa blanja..?? aku tgh kopak ni..

fairy: aku ajak, aku la blanja..tp kita dua je. nizam kn da keje kt kl..

me: ok2.. jam brapa tu..??

fairy: 8.15 p.m, ok?

me: ok2..

so, by 8.15 p.m aku da ttonggok kt pintu waiting for fairy to pick me..

abah luk @ me n ask me,

abah: nk g mn memlm ni..?

me: dating..

abah: dgn nizam..??

me: buat pe dating dgn nizam.. dia bukan nk kawen dgn org pon..!!

abah - [laugh] hbs tu dgn sape..?

me: nk tau..?? g ngintai kt pintu nanti ms org tu smpi.. hehehehe~

abah: [geleng kpla]

fairy pick me @ 8.20 p.m..

sushi king was crowded wit chinese last nite..

so, we had our dinner @ KFC..

n ders only we [me n fairy] without him [nizam]..

MESSY & BUSY..!!

i hv so many things to do..

need to sum up and update marks for mid-term exam @ zoomA..

unfortunately web page tu x bole access..

dis text appear each time i try to log in..

"cannot find server.."

then how..??

today is d last day to update marks - even still got many teachers haven't update it yet..

but, as penyelaras headcount form 2, i shud be among d 1st person to update d marks..

erkkkkk..!!

Wedding + My Frens...~

congratulations to ol my frens yg da m'langsung'n pkahwinn masing2 thn ni..

to capa aina, 

to eno shinoda a.k.a nurzalina nordin,

to my junior hazim halim,

to cekgu pda,

and to roslina,

wish ol of u happy together..

축하해요 chuka haeyo..