HAPPY NEW YEAR...!!

tepat jam 12 mlm nanti kita akan bergerak melangkah ke tahun baru..

2011... 

hurm.. mcm biasa la.. 

setiap kali tahun baru sure semua orang da tetapkan azam baru..

n termasuk aku lah..

each n every year with nue azam..

jgn tanya apa azam tahun 2010 aku sbb aku mmg x ingat..

erkk..!! abaikan..

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sempena tahun baru ni, kita mulakan la dgn azam baru..

n hopefully i'll remember it and try to fullfill it throughout 2011..

untuk menjadikan ianya lebih berkesan dan bermakna, aku da [sbnrnya msh lg dlm kategori.. akan] list down apa yg aku nk capai in 2011..

dr aspek personal life aku, my career, my relationship [workplace, frens and ...]

mengharapkan segalanya berjalan dengan lancar dan sukses hendaknya..

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i wud like to wish my best buddy, cik fairy a very happy burfdayy...

smga sgala yg anda impikan dan hajatkan menjadi kenyataan hujung tahun depan.. 

peace!

SEDIH...!! :(

i'm on my way preparing everything for next yr..

i think a lot n i plan a lot..

because i'm very sure dat i wil get it next yr.. 

suddenly i get to know dat it wont happen..

sooooooooooooo frustrateddddddddddd...!!!

i dunno wat to do..

i dunno wat to think..

i feel like i'm goin to die..

 

 but, no worry frens..

i wont commit suicide..

i need food therapy..

SUSHI KING..??

yeahhh...!!

smoked salmon..?? kani tama maki..?? ebiko..??  surimi scallop..?? ebi ten @ fry..?? tori karage ..?? golden ball..?? etc.

lalaalalalalalalalaalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

[singing wit teary eyes]

 

MMMMMMOOOODDDDDDDDD..??!

 

dunno wat happen..

i guess i should feel happy but i'm not..

sometimes i think i'm mad but i don't have the right..

now,  i feel frustrated and that is true..

huhhh...

let's go back to the reality..

stop dreaming cause it won't bring you anywhere..

it didn't help you but harm you even more..

thanks to God for that moment..

the moment that make me realized where am i..

the moment that wake me up from my lovely fantasy..

the moment that help me to think straight so i won't fall again.. 

Dear God..

please help me and guide me when i'm weak..

please remind me cause i tend to forget..

please love me cause i really need it..

please care about me cause it'll make me happy..

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its a terrible day..

i lost control..

mentally, emotionally and physically..

its hurt me and i hope its already end..

wake up dear..!! 

wake up..!!

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BREATHLESS..

"if u short, fat n ugly, dun worry, there''ll b sum1 dat love u, care about u and spend d rest of his/her life with u..  

but..

 if u have a disease package, dun u dream to hv ones.."

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i'm breathless last nite.. 

suddenly..

may b, Hb count low..

next review, Hemato Clinic, is still far away..

its on January 2010..

hopefully i can survive with d vitamins given by doc..

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i'm enjoying my life now..

as my fren said, i ned to think positive..

think about happy things..

n dreams..

of course..my fav activity..

hahahahaaaa~ :)

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hey..

i'm fallin in lov again..

n of course its one-sided love lah..

he's single n ebelebel b4, but, not now..

he's getting engaged soon..

i'm happy for him..

congrats oppa..

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sarang hae..!!

GRIBBLES.. :(

Monday - GH, Ipoh - collect medical report..

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then - Hospital Tun Fatimah, Gribbles - collect ENA test result..

"The presence of $$@ antibody is primarily associated with the $&0#3^$ group of diseases, although it may b seen in a variety of other ********** diseases."

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Dear God, 
please give me strength to face everything in future related to my diseases..
if i hv to "go" 1st b4 my parents, please take care of them on behalf of me..
thanks..

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"SSTU D KOTAK FIKIRAN"

goin to Pangkor next wek utk induksi..
excited but afraid..
boleh ke survive..??
i'm not friendly..
ada ke org nk kwn dgn aku..??
huhh..

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sllu sakit kpla lately..
severe headache..
ned actifast kalau tak mmg menderita menahan sakit..
cuaca panas kot..
dats y..
but, as doc said dat i hv d tendencies to &%^$*&#@$%^%$^&&%^$..
itu yg menakutkn..
erkk..!

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hope to not think about dis nemore..
but rs tkilan dan kecik ati ttp dtg..
btol la kata org, manusia cpt berubah..
dlm skelip mata je..
so, lets get rid this kind of people from our life..
wekkkksss..!!

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WHO IZ HE..??

funny~ funny~ funny..~
hahaha~

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its all about my dream last nite..
try to stop it, but i cant..
hihihi~

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berada d sebuah bilik, dalam sebuah rumah yg besar..
i was on my bed when i saw a guy walk out from d toilet in my room..
he told me to take my shower n get ready for breakfast..cuba utk melihat dan mengenalpasti siapakah dia, tp  x bole..
i can c his body next to me but not his face..
mcm ada sbuah lampu di letakkn di blkg kplanya yg mnyebabkan wajahnya x kelihatan..

OMG..!!
WHO IZ HE..??
jeng jeng jeng..

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oittt.. Baiti..!!
stop dreaming k..
oweys dream dream dream..
wat u get..??
nuting lor...
ceh..!
but, who iz he erk..??

** in my dream he is my husband.. but in reality.. i dunno who he is..**

uwaaaaaaaaaaa~

ADMITTED & DISCHARGED - HPBI @ GH

Admitted : 7th Sept 2010, 2.20 a.m - Ward 8B, Bed 28
                 8th Sept 2010, 6.50 p.m transferred to Ward 8C, Room 6, Bed 2

Discharged : 27th Sept 2010, 6.15 p.m

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                                                                  Blood Transfusion

 

 

Me & Cik Fairy

                                                              En. Bullah  & En. Farid

                                                        En. Bullah, En. Farid & En. Pezol

                                                                        Me & Nurse

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tq to all my frens [En. Akla, En. Faizal cd, En. Pezol, En. Fizi, En. Farid Nidzam, En. Ikhram, En. Jian, Cik Aziah, Cik Zura] yg dtg melawat i di wad..
special thanks to Cik Fairy dan En. Bullah yg sllu dtg melawat i dan membawa mknn yg i teringin nk mkn.. 
thanks juga kepada rakan skerja Puan Wan Norazah, Pn. Huda, Cik Nadia & Cik Chai atas lawatan anda semua..
special thanks to En. Fauzi kerana x jemu2 singgah ke bilik sy & memantau keputusan darah sy..
org kata, kawan ketawa sng d cari, kawan menangis 1 dlm 1000..
kehadiran kamu semua amat dhargai..
org kata, ada ubi ada batas, ada hari boleh balas..
insyaallah, mudah-mudahan budi kamu semua dapat ssy balas suatu masa nanti..
x lupa juga terima kasih buat staffnurse  & doktor2 [Dr. Yoges, Dr. Richard, Dr. Padmini, Dr. Pamela, Datuk Dr. Chandran, Dr. Chew, Dr. Lee B.H, Dr. Guru, Dr. Hafizah, Dr. Solha, Dr. Oh dll]yg merawat sy..

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IT's MY BURFDAY..!!

hey..
its my burfday today...
thanks to all my frens n studs yg wish i kt FB..
wat i ned now is doa anda semua supaya i sehat smla..

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burfday thn ni i d uji skali lg dgn kesihatan yg tidak memberangsangkan..
had feverish since last tuesday till now - x ok2 lg..
still under treatment and further investigation dgn Hospital Kampar.. urinary tract infections & anemia - low Hb, WBC & RBC
better kot than Hospital Ipoh..
hopefully semuanya ok2 belaka..

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i'm totally in pain n feel like dying..
++ rs sgt2 bdosa sbb x dpt menunaikan ibadah puasa dgn baik thn ini..
doakan i sembuh scepat mungkin k..

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thanks to cik fairy, cik dilla n en. bullah utk hadiah burfday..
i upload d pict later k..
d presents stil in my car..
sy sgt2 menghargainya...

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COBAAN.. ("~,~)

menganggapnya sbgai cobaan dr Tuhan utk menguji keimanan sy di bulan yang mulia ini..
maka, sy terima dugaan ini dgn tenang dan sabar..
hahaha~

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a very gud introduction, huhh..??!
ekceli demam sejak beberapa hari ini..
bmula dgn sakit kepala yg teramat, sakit tekak, d susuli batuk kering, demam panas di waktu malam, chill, batuk berkahak, demam + chill + headache sepanjang hari..
kejadian bermula sehari sblm mkn mlm sy dan cik fairy di Restoran Shakira n hinnga hari ini..
smlm ke hospital utk jmpa doc - amik ubat + mc... heheh~
mmg sungguh tidak larat..
doc siap suh bukak puasa utk mkn ubat but i refused..

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ke hospital pd jam 12 tgh hari..
da bersiap2 utk ke skola.. tiba2 rs malas lak..
plus, tempt tinggi sgt rsnyer..
so, ajak mak teman g hospital..
abah suggest ke klinik..
but, since i ni sgt kedekot utk mbazir RM20.++, i insists nk g hospital gak..
reached hospital around 12.15 m.d, daftar n tggu turn..
12.30 d panggil masuk, btemu doc n complain.. complain and complain..
then, doc suh amik darah n air kencing..
menunggu keptusan itu dr jam 12.45 hingga jam 2.20 p.m..
nak patah rsnyer pinggang duduk menunggu..
but, still sabar..

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tepat 2.20 p.m di panggil masuk lg..
based on blood n urine test u, u demam biasa je.. so, kita bg u ubat n antibiotic lah buat ms ni..
erkk..!! watever la doc.. nk mc..!
curi2 tgk kptsn darah..
da lama x buat FBC..
PLT = 100..?? aiks.. kenapa da turun..??
hurm..
sbb da x larat sgt nk duduk lama, x mo tanya doc la..
sure dia x tau sejarah perubatan i..
kang panjang lg citernyer..
:p

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blk rumah - tekak kering, abah suh bukak pose..
alaa... mmg x larat giler time tu..
tp, mengenangkan da jam 2.45 p.m baek teruskan sahaja..
lepas bbuka, solat maghrib + isya'..
turun, makan ubat, lipat kain, pengsan..!!
hahah~

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to my frens..
utk event kita sabtu ni, if i da betul2 sehat i g k..
:D